I like making lists, so here is another one. 21 of my favourite music videos.
They aren't in any particular order.
1) Placebo - Pure Morning
I love this video, it gives me shivers when I watch it. The song in general is one of my favourites, but when I saw this video for the first time a long time ago on TV, it has stayed with me. It probably helps that Brian is flipping gorgeous.
2) Aphex Twin - Come To Daddy
You knew it would be here, I knew it would be here, I couldn't miss this video out. I did think about putting Rubber Johnny in here, but I can only watch that one with the lights on.
3) Bjork - Hyperballad
There was a point in my life where every happy moment had this song in the background, so it makes sense for it to be here. I watched the video a little later, and what's not to like? Bjork, sparkles and electrical things! Plus throwing objects! I love throwing objects.
4) Chemical Brothers - Do It Again
This video always amuses me.
5) CocoRosie - Lemonade
Not only do I have obsession with CocoRosie, but I love all their videos. Especially this one.
6) Crystal Castles - Celestica
Not my favourite song of theres, but I think it's my inner goth that loves the whole green, over-grown cemetary thing going on. And of course Alice Glass, I can only dream of owning a face like hers.
7) The Dresden Dolls - Girl Anachronism
You were expecting this one! I know, I am refining the art of predictability here, but look! I love this video! I think it's the dress up scene that really appeals to me, I had a phase when I was younger when I believed that when I wasn't at school, that every day should be a dress-up day.
8) Fever Ray - When I Grow Up
My mum showed me this video, and since then it's been a love affair between me and Fever Ray ever since. From this I discovered ...
9) The Knife - Pass This On
The woman who sings in Fever Ray is also part of The Knife. Me and my best friend Bun, we sing this to each other all the time, despite neither of us having any brothers.
10) Jack Off Jill - My Cat
I know, I know... goff. BUT I love this video, I love this song and I don't care about it being goff! So there.
11) Pilot - Oops
Sorry but what isn't there to love about beating up some guy in a green hoody, I get the same satisfaction when watching Deathproof in the end scene where the proper damage Stuntman Mike.
12) PJ Harvey - This Is Love
You could say that this video is here because I'm a total fan-girl, and you'd be right about that.
13) Portishead - Only You
So b-e-autiful!
14) Leftfield - Afrika Shox
Chris Cunningham made this video, I think I just love all his videos.
15) Squarepusher - Come On My Selector
Again the Cunningham made this, this video is well amusing.
16) The White Stripes - Blue Orchid
Another person who makes videos/takes photos who I'm a huge fan of is Floria Sigismondi. She made this video, and she also made this beauty...
17) Sigur Ros - Untitled 1 (Vaka)
I'd probably enjoy snow a lot more if it looked like that.
18) Jonsi - Go Do
Lead singer guy Jonsi from Sigur Ros did some solo stuff, and I would like to marry this video.
19) QueenAdreena - Jolene
Everyone knows I'm a massive KJ Garside fan-girl anyway, and I adore this video.
20) Venetian Snares would be here if they had a video I liked. But they don't. So I'll confuse you with:
Regina Spektor - Samson
and finally
21) Prodigy - Spitfire
Tuesday, 20 December 2011
Sunday, 18 December 2011
Second Post, A New Voice For A Week
I mentioned before someone said something to me that really made me think, and suddenly it made a new voice inside me. It would talk all day, but this evening it died. I suppose a week in it's company was better than no week at all.
It would say to me, that I would be ok. That I could do it. That living and getting on would be easier, the dark room wouldn't be so black, the noise wouldn't get unbearable and that I could wake up and things just would be ok.
But realistically, of course, all good things come to an end. It left me alone this evening. As it has left me, if it comes back do I welcome it? Or should I tune it out and start listening to me for a change? You know, the real me. But it is difficult to be the real me when being just me is lonely. When you are just yourself with no chitter chatter, there is only your own noise. I don't make a lot of noise.
Whilst writing this I think I realise that whilst I may mourn for the voice, it may or may not come back, but if it doesn't I will deal with it. That is life after all. It has left me, again not good enough for it to stay, so fuck it.
I'm not very good at dealing with rejection, after all I had made plans for the voice to stay. You search and search for things that are like yourself, but when yourself is dysfunctional anyway, you have got to expect that you cannot live with the things you hear are like yourself.
I hope the voice never comes back. I listened to it all week and it was just a selfish ghost, reminding me that everything is fleeting. Except me. I'm not fleeting. I'm still bloody here.
It would say to me, that I would be ok. That I could do it. That living and getting on would be easier, the dark room wouldn't be so black, the noise wouldn't get unbearable and that I could wake up and things just would be ok.
But realistically, of course, all good things come to an end. It left me alone this evening. As it has left me, if it comes back do I welcome it? Or should I tune it out and start listening to me for a change? You know, the real me. But it is difficult to be the real me when being just me is lonely. When you are just yourself with no chitter chatter, there is only your own noise. I don't make a lot of noise.
Whilst writing this I think I realise that whilst I may mourn for the voice, it may or may not come back, but if it doesn't I will deal with it. That is life after all. It has left me, again not good enough for it to stay, so fuck it.
I'm not very good at dealing with rejection, after all I had made plans for the voice to stay. You search and search for things that are like yourself, but when yourself is dysfunctional anyway, you have got to expect that you cannot live with the things you hear are like yourself.
I hope the voice never comes back. I listened to it all week and it was just a selfish ghost, reminding me that everything is fleeting. Except me. I'm not fleeting. I'm still bloody here.
Tuesday, 13 December 2011
First Blog Post, For Real This Time
I have a horrible tendency to not keep up with blogs. But no. This time I shall keep this blog! I'm going to fill it with lists, things I'd like to achieve, ideas, inspiration and the general things I want to write somewhere but never felt I could.
I'm 21, so let's start with 21 facts about me:
1) I love photography, and for a long time I thought it was my entire life. It is a big part of my life, but I've realised that there is more to life than creating a fairy-tale.
2) Penguins are my favourite animal. They have a harsh old life, do dear penguins, but they get on. And there is something strangely endearing about something that walks so clumsily on land.
3) I also love space, I do without a doubt believe that there is other life out in the universe. I think it is so beautiful out there, something else on their own planet must be looking up and wondering about us too.
4) My feet are too small for my body, size 3-4, but they keep me upright most of the time.
5) I'm obsessed with pastel colours, glitter, fairy-tale things, cupcakes, cuteness and lipstick.
6) I like electronic music because I'm attracted to certain sounds, sometimes I will play a song on repeat just so I can hear a certain sound over and over.
7) I'm not that into food, I drink a lot of tea, but I can easily forget to eat and I don't get a lot of joy from it. The only times I'm excited about eating is when it's Christmas Day, it's a McDonalds, when JB has cooked meatballs or when someone comes with me to Zizzi's to also eat meatballs. Oh, and cake.
8) I'm very family orientated. I don't like leaving my family for too long and I'm happiest when they are all around. If someone didn't like my family, then I would have trouble being friends with them.
9) I haven't drawn properly since my Art A-level, the teachers hated my drawing. I'm not really sure if I could start drawing again without ripping it up and making snow out of it.
10) I can't leave my hair alone, I need to change it frequently. I feel naked without pretty colours on my head!
11) Manly men do freak me out a bit, I tend to get on with people better when they are feminine. It's probably because manly men don't appreciate the wonders of Irregular Choice shoes. I also freak out a bit when I look too manly, I promise I am a girl! I just have big shoulders!
12) I'm really impressed by little things, not so impressed by big things. Big things are nice; cars, big houses, pools and that sort of thing. But I'm much happier with little things like a nice little house, acorns, sea shells, hand-made gifts, letters. I'm sure you get the idea. I especially love letters.
13) I lack the ability to tell when others are bored, I'm not often bored, so sometimes I'm not really sure if it's just me that is content. I'm also not very good at knowing when to feel awkward, some people don't like awkward silences, but I thought silence was pretty natural. I worry some people are feeling awkward and I'm still totally content with said silence.
14) I love having visitors. Models, make-up artists, designers, friends, family or anyone really. People are fascinating and I love knowing about them. I guess I'm a bit nosey too, but I am always surprised and intrigued by others and enjoy company.
15) Though I'm happy with my own company too. Sometimes I like not to speak to anyone at all, not out of being anti-social, just because I like thinking by myself.
16) Someone said to me recently 'Do what makes you happy'. It made me realise that I've not really been doing what makes me happy, but doing what I am expected to do. This new year I am going to do what makes me happy, I'm going to gut my wardrobe and wear lipstick again too.
17) I'm supposed to be almost 5'6, but I walk with a bit of a hunch, so I look more like 5'4.
18) I have a selection of films that I like to watch at certain times. Like when I'm feeling ill films, when I'm feeling happy films, when I'm watching with someone films, and so on.
19) In the past I thought I would have no want for film photography, but I am glad I started getting into it more. I love my holga camera, it always makes unpredictable photos.
20) I love watching shit TV. There's just something so addictive about America's Next Top Model or Maury.
21) I have a terrible memory, so now I just write things down to remember!
I'm 21, so let's start with 21 facts about me:
1) I love photography, and for a long time I thought it was my entire life. It is a big part of my life, but I've realised that there is more to life than creating a fairy-tale.
2) Penguins are my favourite animal. They have a harsh old life, do dear penguins, but they get on. And there is something strangely endearing about something that walks so clumsily on land.
3) I also love space, I do without a doubt believe that there is other life out in the universe. I think it is so beautiful out there, something else on their own planet must be looking up and wondering about us too.
4) My feet are too small for my body, size 3-4, but they keep me upright most of the time.
5) I'm obsessed with pastel colours, glitter, fairy-tale things, cupcakes, cuteness and lipstick.
6) I like electronic music because I'm attracted to certain sounds, sometimes I will play a song on repeat just so I can hear a certain sound over and over.
7) I'm not that into food, I drink a lot of tea, but I can easily forget to eat and I don't get a lot of joy from it. The only times I'm excited about eating is when it's Christmas Day, it's a McDonalds, when JB has cooked meatballs or when someone comes with me to Zizzi's to also eat meatballs. Oh, and cake.
8) I'm very family orientated. I don't like leaving my family for too long and I'm happiest when they are all around. If someone didn't like my family, then I would have trouble being friends with them.
9) I haven't drawn properly since my Art A-level, the teachers hated my drawing. I'm not really sure if I could start drawing again without ripping it up and making snow out of it.
10) I can't leave my hair alone, I need to change it frequently. I feel naked without pretty colours on my head!
11) Manly men do freak me out a bit, I tend to get on with people better when they are feminine. It's probably because manly men don't appreciate the wonders of Irregular Choice shoes. I also freak out a bit when I look too manly, I promise I am a girl! I just have big shoulders!
12) I'm really impressed by little things, not so impressed by big things. Big things are nice; cars, big houses, pools and that sort of thing. But I'm much happier with little things like a nice little house, acorns, sea shells, hand-made gifts, letters. I'm sure you get the idea. I especially love letters.
13) I lack the ability to tell when others are bored, I'm not often bored, so sometimes I'm not really sure if it's just me that is content. I'm also not very good at knowing when to feel awkward, some people don't like awkward silences, but I thought silence was pretty natural. I worry some people are feeling awkward and I'm still totally content with said silence.
14) I love having visitors. Models, make-up artists, designers, friends, family or anyone really. People are fascinating and I love knowing about them. I guess I'm a bit nosey too, but I am always surprised and intrigued by others and enjoy company.
15) Though I'm happy with my own company too. Sometimes I like not to speak to anyone at all, not out of being anti-social, just because I like thinking by myself.
16) Someone said to me recently 'Do what makes you happy'. It made me realise that I've not really been doing what makes me happy, but doing what I am expected to do. This new year I am going to do what makes me happy, I'm going to gut my wardrobe and wear lipstick again too.
17) I'm supposed to be almost 5'6, but I walk with a bit of a hunch, so I look more like 5'4.
18) I have a selection of films that I like to watch at certain times. Like when I'm feeling ill films, when I'm feeling happy films, when I'm watching with someone films, and so on.
19) In the past I thought I would have no want for film photography, but I am glad I started getting into it more. I love my holga camera, it always makes unpredictable photos.
20) I love watching shit TV. There's just something so addictive about America's Next Top Model or Maury.
21) I have a terrible memory, so now I just write things down to remember!
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